— Lauren Oliver, Before I Fall
— Joanne Harris
Hitting some kind of wall is all it takes, really.
It’s that one cessation of movement - that single, momentary hesitation… all it takes to break concentration. I looked away from the page between “break” and “concentration”. Now go re-read that, and understand how it feels to be constantly pulled around, through madness and sanity alike, interwoven, unable to neither understand nor explain the phenomenon to the one prescribing the medication.
So you give into temptation.
You blink. And you close your eyes for that one moment longer, unwilling and unable to restrain.
From that one - meow - distraction.